I love you

I never realized, that I love you, till I make u down. Yes I did it,

Formerly, I think, "Life must go on" and then, I go, and think, that I can forget you and start of something new. But, now i know, i was wrong, and its too late. I've already make u sad. And i'm afraid that u won't forgive me.

I dont need any chance. I just want you to know. that I love you.

I was thinking, that should come back to the place where i let you down, to reach your hand, and hold you, and walking together through this together.

Now, i through my life without love. I'm sad. And i just had make you down. i'm really afraid to talk to you.

Well, I beg you, dont hate me. dont leave me. cause now I know, that I was wrong. :'(

I wish, I could turn the hands of time. I will turn the time, where I make u sad, and depressed. I dont really know, what I'm begging on,

But I know, i'm begging on you. To love me, once again.. :'(

Give me one more change

wanna cry, i'm so low, so sad, and hollow..

how could be like this? how dare you. But, thats okay. :(

Sorry for trespassed your kindness

Sorry one more time, to hurt you, to make you feeling sad. And now, i feel the same way too. Now, i can understand how you feel. Well, it's really hurt, i try my best not to cry, but i can't. I'm sad, maybe i'm not strong enough to not crying. But, in fact, i just cry.

I don't know who to face him.

Thanks to be patient with me. Now, its my time to be patient with him. Try not be understanding, but try to understand. I don't know, how long I can face it. Maybe, it was my cursed for being bad in my past.

But, thats life. We learned, we study, we face it, we failed, we're trying, until we're success, amin. Well, if i could wish upon a star, i wanna pray for something, but, well, face it, theres no fallin star. It's just in a story.

Stay Here, and Don't Go...

I'm bored, you never here for me. Did you know whether I'm bored? No, you don't. You never here for me, but you always there for her. Is that only in my mind, or that's true? I won't make you confused, or something else. Please, dont try to make me jealous, its hurt. :'(
When a girl said she's alright, in fact, she's dont.
Say that you love me, it makes me feel that you're always here with me and make me afraid if one day, not you, but me, who hurt you.
But, you don't know what is like to be like me.

My Fault

Whats my fault? tell me, so I can understand. If you don't tell me what's going on there, how can I know whats the matter?
I'm tired wtih all of this, all of the bad things that happen to me. And why it happen to me? May I left all the matter and try to don't care about the people aroud me? I am tired to take part in their life. I have my own life and problem too!! May I go to somewhere which just me in there so I can have a little of peace? Or I'm not allowed too feel the peace it self.
Please, I beg on you guys. Well, I don't wish that u will be understand everything about me. But at least, respect. Thats all, thats all that I want from u all. Can't u guys understand about this?
In my daily prayer, I was pray that I could just disappear from this earth. But, I can't. I'm too sad.

I've to go..

Thanks for everything, for stay besides me till today. for loving me, and caring me.

Thanks to be patient of me, and waiting for me for that long time.

Thanks to be always honest to me, even I usually lie to you. But, believe me, it because its my own problem and I wont making u sad

Sorry for making you waiting so long.

Sorry for making you cry.

Sorry for all of bad things that I've ever done, i'm really sorry.

I'm begging you not to angry with me. That's just my last wishes for you.

Maybe I can't love you anymore, because now, I've to move on. Where I belong to be there and that way.

Because, I don't think we could be together just like before.

I'm trying to understand you, but maybe I can't, maybe I'm to selfish to try to understand about you.

Please, don't hate me.

Move on, life must go on. I don't wanna see you sad. But maybe I've done it already.

Maybe, this is the time..

I've to go. Goodbye..

Everybody has a Chance

Udah lama tau ungkapan ini, udah lama denger ungkapan ini, tapi menyadari betapa bermaknanya kata ini baru beberapa hari yang lalu.
"Everybody has a Chance" tiba-tiba teringat sebuah ungkapan ini. Dan tiba-tiba juga terenyak, telah menghilangkan hak yang dimiliki orang tersebut.
Menyesal belum terlambat, setidaknya, inilah yang dipikirkan saat ini. Ngga tau bakal dibaca sama ybs ato ngga. ^^
Dear ybs,
I don't think you'll be glad when u read this passage. But actually, I want to make you understand with all of this complicated feelings. Well, I don't know how to start, and I also don't know where's the exit. I can't find any.. So, without I realized what had already happened, I was trapped in this maze.
Actually, I wanna make understand, but at the same time, a little part of me whisper to me and not permitted myself to do that and it.. It reasonable..
I.am.bo.red..
In my daily prayer, I always ask god how to solve it,, but, I don't know what did HE say to me, becos, it feels so, nothing..
well, I don't what are you. where do u come from, for what did you came to, and what you wanna do.. For me, it just, a little weird. and maybe, I'm not that sensitive, so actually, you should throwing a coral or a stone to woke me up from my unconsciuos..
A little part, and maybe l8r, I'll finished my work.

A chance.. you should have it too..